I've been following Glenn @ Fifty Five & Fat and he was one of my followers but tonight I see he dropped out..I hope it wasn't something I said. I hope everything is all right with him, he's been doing so good. I love his commuting stories and he always has positive comments to my blog. That's one of the problems with blogging..you get to "know" and like people and then all of sudden they drop out and you have no idea what happens to them.
Glenn..if you read this..I hope everything is good for you! You have been a real inspiration to me!
Weight loss goal
Friday, October 29, 2010
Books, Books, and more Books
I know that I should be blogging about "weight loss" but I'm on a kick on something else right now (at least for today).
I love to read..in fact you could call me an avid reader. I read all kinds of books..I go through periods of doing nothing but reading (I'm in one of those periods now). I truthfully could live without TV but don't take my books away.
I have bookcases full of books in every room of my house (except the bathrooms). Larry had the bookcase in my office built for me for my B'day one year (best gift EVER)...and the small bookcase in my living room is the one my GrandDad built over 50 years ago.
This is only 2 of my many bookcases. I have Books stacked up on the floor in two rooms because I've run out of space for bookcases..books in boxes in the closet...book up in the attic...boxes out in the garage...my kids tell me that I can never move because of the books..Get the idea!
With so many books I sometimes forget what book I have and when I go to the bookstore I end up buying a book only to find out I have it already. (This happened to me last week)..or that my daughter has it in her books.
Anyway I've tried to catalog all of my books on the computer a couple of times in the past..it has never worked...either my computer crashed and I lost all the info or I would see a book that I hadn't read for awhile and would get sidetracked and start reading again. Last night I decided that I would try again and stayed up till 3 am this morning working on a simple Excel Spreadsheet and now I don't have time to think about blogging about weight loss...but I'm still working on it.
Got to go to work...I love this job because while I'm waiting for Princess Val to get dressed and eat, I have to be real quiet...so I sit there and READ a book!...It's the Perfect Job for me..I just wish it paid more. But hey I'm not complaining..IT's a JOB!
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| B'day bookcase |
I have bookcases full of books in every room of my house (except the bathrooms). Larry had the bookcase in my office built for me for my B'day one year (best gift EVER)...and the small bookcase in my living room is the one my GrandDad built over 50 years ago.
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| GrandDad's Bookcase |
This is only 2 of my many bookcases. I have Books stacked up on the floor in two rooms because I've run out of space for bookcases..books in boxes in the closet...book up in the attic...boxes out in the garage...my kids tell me that I can never move because of the books..Get the idea!
With so many books I sometimes forget what book I have and when I go to the bookstore I end up buying a book only to find out I have it already. (This happened to me last week)..or that my daughter has it in her books.
Anyway I've tried to catalog all of my books on the computer a couple of times in the past..it has never worked...either my computer crashed and I lost all the info or I would see a book that I hadn't read for awhile and would get sidetracked and start reading again. Last night I decided that I would try again and stayed up till 3 am this morning working on a simple Excel Spreadsheet and now I don't have time to think about blogging about weight loss...but I'm still working on it.
Got to go to work...I love this job because while I'm waiting for Princess Val to get dressed and eat, I have to be real quiet...so I sit there and READ a book!...It's the Perfect Job for me..I just wish it paid more. But hey I'm not complaining..IT's a JOB!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
I hate the word OBESE!
I watched "The Biggest Loser" last night and as I watch these "obese" people get on the scale to weigh themselves I wonder if our society is getting immune to the sight of really obese people and how is that affecting all of us.
Ten years ago these people would have never came out in the public looking like they do but now (for money and fame?) they bare it all on TV. Don't get me wrong I think it's great that they are finding help to get the bodies they need and want but is it entertainment or motivation for most people.
I see rolls & rolls of fat on their bodies and think "Thank God that isn't me...I'm not that fat so I don't have anything to worry about". I see people at the store who are too "obese" to walk so they take the "electric cart" and fill it up with junk foods. And I think to myself...Thank God that isn't me...I'm not that fat so I don't have anything to worry about"...I see the "obese" woman with her chubby little kids in line at the grocery store, her cart full of junk foods and soda's and think to myself that I am so much better than she because see I don't buy cookies, cakes, donuts or soda's.
What does it matter IF I am 30, 40 , 50 or 100 pounds overweight I'm still "OBESE" !
Lord how I hate that word...From my Webster Dictionary...OBESE adj. Lat. obesus grown fat from eating... Get IT! It doesn't say you get OBESE from lack of exercise or that it's hereditary...that it's your Mom's fault that you're OBESE or that Life made you OBESE...NO! it says you've grown FAT from eating!!! So why am I still making excuses in what I eat...there are alot of people in this world who don't belong to the gym or work out daily but they do eat sensibly so they are not OBESE...I want to be one of those people...but because I'm OBESE and have GROWN FAT FROM EATING, it will NEVER be easy for me..It will always be a struggle...I Will have to exercise to burn this extra fat off my body, I will have to watch my calories and I will have to drink my water...
Because the one thing I do know is that IF I accept that I'm OBESE then the possibility of my being as fat as those people on the show or the people in the grocery store will be come a reality and that is NOT acceptable to me.
Ten years ago these people would have never came out in the public looking like they do but now (for money and fame?) they bare it all on TV. Don't get me wrong I think it's great that they are finding help to get the bodies they need and want but is it entertainment or motivation for most people.
I see rolls & rolls of fat on their bodies and think "Thank God that isn't me...I'm not that fat so I don't have anything to worry about". I see people at the store who are too "obese" to walk so they take the "electric cart" and fill it up with junk foods. And I think to myself...Thank God that isn't me...I'm not that fat so I don't have anything to worry about"...I see the "obese" woman with her chubby little kids in line at the grocery store, her cart full of junk foods and soda's and think to myself that I am so much better than she because see I don't buy cookies, cakes, donuts or soda's.
What does it matter IF I am 30, 40 , 50 or 100 pounds overweight I'm still "OBESE" !
Lord how I hate that word...From my Webster Dictionary...OBESE adj. Lat. obesus grown fat from eating... Get IT! It doesn't say you get OBESE from lack of exercise or that it's hereditary...that it's your Mom's fault that you're OBESE or that Life made you OBESE...NO! it says you've grown FAT from eating!!! So why am I still making excuses in what I eat...there are alot of people in this world who don't belong to the gym or work out daily but they do eat sensibly so they are not OBESE...I want to be one of those people...but because I'm OBESE and have GROWN FAT FROM EATING, it will NEVER be easy for me..It will always be a struggle...I Will have to exercise to burn this extra fat off my body, I will have to watch my calories and I will have to drink my water...
Because the one thing I do know is that IF I accept that I'm OBESE then the possibility of my being as fat as those people on the show or the people in the grocery store will be come a reality and that is NOT acceptable to me.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Starting the day off right!
It's my day off today..and I've work up a good sweat with Billy Blanks Tae Bo. I feel full of energy now! I had a glass of juice and in a little while I'll fix me my oatmeal. I NEVER eat before I exercise because I would get reflux. It takes awhile for me to feel hungry after I exercise. I like to relax so when I do eat it will stay down. I hate having stomach problems but that's life for me and I've learn how to deal with it.
I did NOT listen to my inner child last night and I DID go to the gym...I will admit that I called my Daughter to push me into going. My inner child was giving me lots of EXCUSES not to go but I didn't give in and as usual once I was there I did fine. In fact although I didn't do the treadmill for cardio, one of the Stair Monsters was free and just waiting for me so I did 20 mins on it..It kicked my butt...by the time I was done I was soaking wet with sweat but it felt good..I kept my form (no leaning over and holding onto the front of the machine as I see so many peeps doing) and upped my level. Then I did a good leg work out..(gripping here).one of the things that really bugs me about the gym is those people who sit on a machine (especially if there is only one, like the abductor machine) and visit with their friends while I'm waiting to use that machine. I will usually ask (politely) how many more sets they have and hope they take the hint...and if they don't then I move onto another machine until they leave..but it still upsets me when peeps use the gym for social hour...when I talk with others I try not to hog a machine at the same time. But I still love going to the gym. I haven't seen the older lady that I talked with last week but I'm hoping that she is coming at a different time than me.
Still not as on track with eating as I would like to be but I am working on it. It's not that I eat food that I shouldn't, more like that I don't balance my meals like I know I need to be doing. It's hard for me to get in enough protein in my diet. I would be happy just eating Vegetables only all day long!
On the Positive side..I am doing better at controlling my sugar intake..in fact I had to ask my daughter to bring sugar ( for those people who use it in their coffee or tea) to my candle party because I didn't have any in the house and didn't want to buy any and have it here in the house. I'm using honey in my tea or drinking the loose leaf tea that my friend Corey brought me from Germany..it has dried fruit in it so I don't need any sweetener. I do so love my tea!
I finally faced the dreaded scale today and I've lost another pound for a total of six. Although I wish it was more I'm not discouraged. I know for me it just going to take time..I guess I would rather lose it slow than fast..I've done it both ways before and I need time to adjust my thinking so once I do lose it I will NOT gain it back...I want off this yo yo merry go round...
I don't have any plans on what to do with my 2 days off right now. I'm still short on money this week so don't want to burn gas running around so looks like I'll stay home. I'll probably end up reading one of my new (used) books...good thing I worked out this morning...
I did NOT listen to my inner child last night and I DID go to the gym...I will admit that I called my Daughter to push me into going. My inner child was giving me lots of EXCUSES not to go but I didn't give in and as usual once I was there I did fine. In fact although I didn't do the treadmill for cardio, one of the Stair Monsters was free and just waiting for me so I did 20 mins on it..It kicked my butt...by the time I was done I was soaking wet with sweat but it felt good..I kept my form (no leaning over and holding onto the front of the machine as I see so many peeps doing) and upped my level. Then I did a good leg work out..(gripping here).one of the things that really bugs me about the gym is those people who sit on a machine (especially if there is only one, like the abductor machine) and visit with their friends while I'm waiting to use that machine. I will usually ask (politely) how many more sets they have and hope they take the hint...and if they don't then I move onto another machine until they leave..but it still upsets me when peeps use the gym for social hour...when I talk with others I try not to hog a machine at the same time. But I still love going to the gym. I haven't seen the older lady that I talked with last week but I'm hoping that she is coming at a different time than me.
Still not as on track with eating as I would like to be but I am working on it. It's not that I eat food that I shouldn't, more like that I don't balance my meals like I know I need to be doing. It's hard for me to get in enough protein in my diet. I would be happy just eating Vegetables only all day long!
On the Positive side..I am doing better at controlling my sugar intake..in fact I had to ask my daughter to bring sugar ( for those people who use it in their coffee or tea) to my candle party because I didn't have any in the house and didn't want to buy any and have it here in the house. I'm using honey in my tea or drinking the loose leaf tea that my friend Corey brought me from Germany..it has dried fruit in it so I don't need any sweetener. I do so love my tea!
I finally faced the dreaded scale today and I've lost another pound for a total of six. Although I wish it was more I'm not discouraged. I know for me it just going to take time..I guess I would rather lose it slow than fast..I've done it both ways before and I need time to adjust my thinking so once I do lose it I will NOT gain it back...I want off this yo yo merry go round...
I don't have any plans on what to do with my 2 days off right now. I'm still short on money this week so don't want to burn gas running around so looks like I'll stay home. I'll probably end up reading one of my new (used) books...good thing I worked out this morning...
Monday, October 25, 2010
Thinner or Stronger?
It's rain here this morning and I'm feeling achey all over. Sometimes getting old isn't much fun. Am I complaining....NO just stating a fact. I've got my gym bag packed for tonight and even if I'm still achey I know I will feel better after I work out. I probably won't do any cardio tonight as it is Monday and EVERYONE hits the gym on Monday, and it seems like they are all on the treadmill. I will not use that as an excuse Not to go (although I'm tempted and that's why I posted it here so I can't use it as an excuse..lol)
I did go to the gym last night and because it was Sunday I actually got to work out in the weight room. I love working with the free weights but I feel that since I'm not a "serious" weight lifter that I shouldn't take up a bench when there are "serious" guys there working out...For some reason Saturdays & Sundays there are only a few "serious" people there and I can always get a bench. I upped my weights last night on bench presses and felt better about my progress than I have in awhile. It's been tough since I've been back because I had to drop my weights back almost to where I was when I started 5 years ago..but I'm getting stronger every time I go in. This is my favorite time at the gym..I figure I will be one of the oldest "STRONG" lady around..The problem with weight training is that muscle weighs more than fat so although I feel I'm getting stronger I'm not losing the weight like I should be. So Do I want to be thinner or do I want to be stronger?
I am doing some cardio at the gym (this should help with losing weight)..I like a good warm up of about 20 mins (this is about all I can stand doing on the treadmill) and I'm trying to get back into running. My knee has been giving me trouble lately but I dug out my knee brace and have been wearing it. I've gotten my time down on doing a mile to less than 14 mins (that's down from 18 mins). This is interval running and walking (mostly walking right now) on the random setting with an incline of 7. I've been working up a pretty damn good sweat doing this..and it's a good warm up before I go do the weights which is my main goal.
I did good on my eating yesterday..I had my oatmeal for breakfast..took a spinach salad with grapes for lunch. some crackers with my hummus/avocado dip for snack and when I got home I fixed myself some veggie soup for dinner. It was nice eating what I like and feeling satisfied.
Good news...starting the first of November I will be getting off work on Sundays and Mondays instead of Tues & Weds..this means that I will be able to get in some Sunday hikes with my AOC group. With the weather getting cooler I can't wait. I probably won't get back into backpacking this year but hopefully by spring I will be able to get in at least one trip..it's a goal to work for.
The answer to my question of whether I want to be thinner or stronger is ....ta da...I want to be both...I want to be a thinner stronger person..that's what I was a couple of years ago and I want that back. I know with hard work I CAN DO IT!
I did go to the gym last night and because it was Sunday I actually got to work out in the weight room. I love working with the free weights but I feel that since I'm not a "serious" weight lifter that I shouldn't take up a bench when there are "serious" guys there working out...For some reason Saturdays & Sundays there are only a few "serious" people there and I can always get a bench. I upped my weights last night on bench presses and felt better about my progress than I have in awhile. It's been tough since I've been back because I had to drop my weights back almost to where I was when I started 5 years ago..but I'm getting stronger every time I go in. This is my favorite time at the gym..I figure I will be one of the oldest "STRONG" lady around..The problem with weight training is that muscle weighs more than fat so although I feel I'm getting stronger I'm not losing the weight like I should be. So Do I want to be thinner or do I want to be stronger?
I am doing some cardio at the gym (this should help with losing weight)..I like a good warm up of about 20 mins (this is about all I can stand doing on the treadmill) and I'm trying to get back into running. My knee has been giving me trouble lately but I dug out my knee brace and have been wearing it. I've gotten my time down on doing a mile to less than 14 mins (that's down from 18 mins). This is interval running and walking (mostly walking right now) on the random setting with an incline of 7. I've been working up a pretty damn good sweat doing this..and it's a good warm up before I go do the weights which is my main goal.
I did good on my eating yesterday..I had my oatmeal for breakfast..took a spinach salad with grapes for lunch. some crackers with my hummus/avocado dip for snack and when I got home I fixed myself some veggie soup for dinner. It was nice eating what I like and feeling satisfied.
Good news...starting the first of November I will be getting off work on Sundays and Mondays instead of Tues & Weds..this means that I will be able to get in some Sunday hikes with my AOC group. With the weather getting cooler I can't wait. I probably won't get back into backpacking this year but hopefully by spring I will be able to get in at least one trip..it's a goal to work for.
The answer to my question of whether I want to be thinner or stronger is ....ta da...I want to be both...I want to be a thinner stronger person..that's what I was a couple of years ago and I want that back. I know with hard work I CAN DO IT!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Saying "NO" and being consistent!
Opps..didn't even get on the computer yesterday so no post..
My candle party Friday night was alright..not spectacular but I really am not one for those so call "parties" where you sell things. The only reason I did this one was I have a friend who is trying to start her own business so I got talked into it.. I really need to learn how to say "NO" to things like this.
The positive side is that it was nice to see some of my friends and family get together..something that doesn't happen often.
I've always prided myself on being able to say "NO" but lately I haven't been doing good in this department.
Not only did I get talked into this party but I've not been eating the way I should..I've given into my "Inner child" way to much lately..not only on what to eat but going to the gym. I do good some days but I'm not consistent. Something I really need to work on.
Yesterday I wasn't feeling the best (too much wine?)and was tired from staying up so late Friday night so I came home instead of going to the gym...but today I'm back on plan..I have my gym bag pack and also have my spinach salad ready to take with me to work. I'm feeling good today.
My candle party Friday night was alright..not spectacular but I really am not one for those so call "parties" where you sell things. The only reason I did this one was I have a friend who is trying to start her own business so I got talked into it.. I really need to learn how to say "NO" to things like this.
The positive side is that it was nice to see some of my friends and family get together..something that doesn't happen often.
I've always prided myself on being able to say "NO" but lately I haven't been doing good in this department.
Not only did I get talked into this party but I've not been eating the way I should..I've given into my "Inner child" way to much lately..not only on what to eat but going to the gym. I do good some days but I'm not consistent. Something I really need to work on.
Yesterday I wasn't feeling the best (too much wine?)and was tired from staying up so late Friday night so I came home instead of going to the gym...but today I'm back on plan..I have my gym bag pack and also have my spinach salad ready to take with me to work. I'm feeling good today.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Real quick
I'm going in to work early today because I'm hosting a Candle party tonight (what was I thinking?) so have to make this one quick!
For a good laugh make sure to check out Jack Sh*t today.
I did go to the gym last night and pushed myself over my comfort zone..It hurt so bad it felt good! Not going tonight because of the party but will be back there tomorrow night.
I'm one of those "talkers" at the gym...Last night I saw this "older" overweight woman working out with a younger (really fit) guy (turns out he's her son) so I gave her some encouraging words to motivate her..it was her first time at the gym and I didn't want her to get discouraged. She's the same age as me (which is really unusual) and her daughter and son have been trying to get her to come to the gym for quite some time..she said one of her biggest worries was that she would be the oldest and fasted person there...LOL...That's one of the things I do love about my gym..there are all types of people that go there...some really buffed out guys (eye candy for me) in the weight room...and then the rest of us. I have made many friends there over the past 5 years.
Opps just looked at the time..got to go!
More later
For a good laugh make sure to check out Jack Sh*t today.
I did go to the gym last night and pushed myself over my comfort zone..It hurt so bad it felt good! Not going tonight because of the party but will be back there tomorrow night.
I'm one of those "talkers" at the gym...Last night I saw this "older" overweight woman working out with a younger (really fit) guy (turns out he's her son) so I gave her some encouraging words to motivate her..it was her first time at the gym and I didn't want her to get discouraged. She's the same age as me (which is really unusual) and her daughter and son have been trying to get her to come to the gym for quite some time..she said one of her biggest worries was that she would be the oldest and fasted person there...LOL...That's one of the things I do love about my gym..there are all types of people that go there...some really buffed out guys (eye candy for me) in the weight room...and then the rest of us. I have made many friends there over the past 5 years.
Opps just looked at the time..got to go!
More later
Thursday, October 21, 2010
No excuses here!
I left my reading glasses at Princess Val's last night so am having to squint to read what I type..hopefully I have my fingers on the right keys...LOL. I want to keep to my plan of blogging each day. That means NO EXCUSES! (TG for spell check)
I did good yesterday..I went to the gym, did my cardio on the elliptical (15 mins) and the treadmill.(I walked at a 14 incline, the highest the tm machine will go, for 15 mins)..worked up a good sweat...flirted with the guy on the tm next to me...oopps...I meant I talked with him..he was nice but too young as usual. I've seen him there before and he talked to me first. Then I did strength training for the upper body. I will do my lower body (legs mostly) tonight. I really like going to the gym. I feel so good when I leave it.
I came home and steamed me some veggies for supper.
I've got my gym bag packed for tonight and am actually looking forward to going.
Now I'm off to read (squinting) to see how everyone else did yesterday.
More Later
I did good yesterday..I went to the gym, did my cardio on the elliptical (15 mins) and the treadmill.(I walked at a 14 incline, the highest the tm machine will go, for 15 mins)..worked up a good sweat...flirted with the guy on the tm next to me...oopps...I meant I talked with him..he was nice but too young as usual. I've seen him there before and he talked to me first. Then I did strength training for the upper body. I will do my lower body (legs mostly) tonight. I really like going to the gym. I feel so good when I leave it.
I came home and steamed me some veggies for supper.
I've got my gym bag packed for tonight and am actually looking forward to going.
Now I'm off to read (squinting) to see how everyone else did yesterday.
More Later
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
I'm so bad!!!!
I didn't go to the gym AGAIN last night! All day my back was bothering me. Not sure what the problem was but it is better this morning (finally). So I spent the time I would have at the gym and went to the store to pick up some things I need for Friday night (should free me up to go to the gym Thurs night).
Then came home and watched The Biggest Loser. Which will probably be the last time I watch that show for this season. It's now getting more into the competition part of the show and they put that girl from Atlanta that cries all of the time that I couldn't stand in the first show on.
For the past week I haven't been able to get back into my routine at the gym for some reason or other (mostly excuses). I have big plans to get back and really work out on a regular schedule but it seems that I'm not as COMMITTED as I need to be. I am the one holding me back. I use the excuse I want to "find myself" first before really getting serious and committing to lose this weight but after reading Jodi at Truth2BeingFit I realize that I need to commit to my exercise plan and my eating plan NOW and while I'm losing the weight work on how I can stay on my plans and not get side tracked like I have the last couple of weeks.
I'm going to follow Dr J's advice on Getting Unstuck. He really hits on exactly why I'm stuck.
So many others out there are doing it. Yes, it's harder now that I'm older, alone and broke (these are only Excuses) but I am sure there is a way to do it and I WILL figure it out. My new Mantra is not "I'm going to do it" but "I AM DOING IT"..thanks Dr.J.
Then came home and watched The Biggest Loser. Which will probably be the last time I watch that show for this season. It's now getting more into the competition part of the show and they put that girl from Atlanta that cries all of the time that I couldn't stand in the first show on.
For the past week I haven't been able to get back into my routine at the gym for some reason or other (mostly excuses). I have big plans to get back and really work out on a regular schedule but it seems that I'm not as COMMITTED as I need to be. I am the one holding me back. I use the excuse I want to "find myself" first before really getting serious and committing to lose this weight but after reading Jodi at Truth2BeingFit I realize that I need to commit to my exercise plan and my eating plan NOW and while I'm losing the weight work on how I can stay on my plans and not get side tracked like I have the last couple of weeks.
I'm going to follow Dr J's advice on Getting Unstuck. He really hits on exactly why I'm stuck.
So many others out there are doing it. Yes, it's harder now that I'm older, alone and broke (these are only Excuses) but I am sure there is a way to do it and I WILL figure it out. My new Mantra is not "I'm going to do it" but "I AM DOING IT"..thanks Dr.J.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
A little of this and a little of that!
It's Tuesday and I have to go to work...hmmm...I guess I've actually gotten used to having Tues & Weds off..Like I said my job isn't too hard so I don't really mind.
I didn't get to the gym last night because Princess Val was having a very bad day. She couldn't focus, only wanted to jabber to herself and go around in circles (the Autism was in full force). I couldn't get her settled down even to eat..took me about 3 hrs to get her to eat a bowl of chicken/rice/broccoli (one of her favorites)..
Finally around 5 pm her Dad and I took her to the park and walked about a mile with her with each of us holding her hands so she couldn't wander..this seemed to calm her down a little. Then Dad drove us to McDonalds to get her a McFlurry and a Fish sandwich (which she ate..hooray). I don't eat fast foods so all I had was an iced tea. By the time we got back to their house is was late. The worry about this young lady not eating is that she only weighs about 60 pounds as is and can't afford not to eat. I wish I could give her some of my weight. I figure she burns about 2000 calories just because she never stays still. That's been one of my biggest problems at this new job is trying to figure out how to get enough calories into this girl to keep her from going into a chemical imbalance..normally she does fine with eating but since her schedule was all changed this past weekend, she is way off... Hopefully today she will be better.
So although I didn't get to the gym at least I got some exercise in the Walk. Won't be able to work out at the gym on Friday because I'm hosting a party at my place Friday night. Am I ready for that? NO!
I'm going to try a new recipe for Hummus Guacamole I found on SparkPeople.
Since I cleaned my windows this past weekend and the weather is so nice here I've left them opened. I love the fresh air coming in...would sleep better except that I now can hear my neighbors dog Scooby (a great Dane) barking..I usually don't hear any of the dogs in the neighborhood (and believe there are lots of them) but for some reason Scooby has been barking constantly for the past two days..in fact I can tell he is getting hoarse today. I'm not going to close my windows and hopefully I Will get used to his barking and will be able to block it out.
Got to get my stuff ready for work and head out..More later
I didn't get to the gym last night because Princess Val was having a very bad day. She couldn't focus, only wanted to jabber to herself and go around in circles (the Autism was in full force). I couldn't get her settled down even to eat..took me about 3 hrs to get her to eat a bowl of chicken/rice/broccoli (one of her favorites)..
Finally around 5 pm her Dad and I took her to the park and walked about a mile with her with each of us holding her hands so she couldn't wander..this seemed to calm her down a little. Then Dad drove us to McDonalds to get her a McFlurry and a Fish sandwich (which she ate..hooray). I don't eat fast foods so all I had was an iced tea. By the time we got back to their house is was late. The worry about this young lady not eating is that she only weighs about 60 pounds as is and can't afford not to eat. I wish I could give her some of my weight. I figure she burns about 2000 calories just because she never stays still. That's been one of my biggest problems at this new job is trying to figure out how to get enough calories into this girl to keep her from going into a chemical imbalance..normally she does fine with eating but since her schedule was all changed this past weekend, she is way off... Hopefully today she will be better.
So although I didn't get to the gym at least I got some exercise in the Walk. Won't be able to work out at the gym on Friday because I'm hosting a party at my place Friday night. Am I ready for that? NO!
I'm going to try a new recipe for Hummus Guacamole I found on SparkPeople.
Since I cleaned my windows this past weekend and the weather is so nice here I've left them opened. I love the fresh air coming in...would sleep better except that I now can hear my neighbors dog Scooby (a great Dane) barking..I usually don't hear any of the dogs in the neighborhood (and believe there are lots of them) but for some reason Scooby has been barking constantly for the past two days..in fact I can tell he is getting hoarse today. I'm not going to close my windows and hopefully I Will get used to his barking and will be able to block it out.
Got to get my stuff ready for work and head out..More later
Monday, October 18, 2010
Where did the weekend go?
Here it is Monday morning already. The weekend went so fast. I didn't get all that I had plan accomplished but I still feel I had a pretty good time. My daughter & g'daughter came over Saturday and we got the kitchen./dining room windows washed. This is a big job and I couldn't have gotten it done without their help. It was nice spending time with my daughter..we laughed alot remembering the past when Larry was alive. Although he was her Step Dad, to my daughter Larry was her DAD. We got together when she was seven years old and although there were times when they didn't get along..most of the time they did..Lots of memories there. (For some reason I've been thinking about Larry alot lately..it's been seven years since he died).
Sunday I took my hike and then mostly slept and did nothing the rest of the day.
I have to work straight through the next 8 days to make up the days the extra days that I did get off..It won't be any big deal since my job isn't all that hard.
I've got my bag for the gym packed and will hit it hard there tonight after work. I'm planning to get at least 5 days in at the gym this week.
More later
Sunday I took my hike and then mostly slept and did nothing the rest of the day.
I have to work straight through the next 8 days to make up the days the extra days that I did get off..It won't be any big deal since my job isn't all that hard.
I've got my bag for the gym packed and will hit it hard there tonight after work. I'm planning to get at least 5 days in at the gym this week.
More later
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Hiking on Sunday morning
I drove an hour to the other side of town this morning to go on a hike with the AOC (Atlanta Outdoor Club).
The hike was nice. It was next to the Chattahoochee River. Times like this I really wish I had a good camera.
It's good to get out and meet new people. There were 8 of us in this group. I like small groups. Nice people all ages. It was suppose to be an three hour hike but ended up only being 2 hrs because the group basically walked so fast. So after we got back to the parking lot I went down a different trail (a loop) by myself so got my three hours in..Lots of people out on these trails this morning, it would have been nicer if there hadn't been so many people but I got by. One of the reasons I picked this hike was because it started earlier than the other hike that were going on today. I love early morning when the fog is still on the water. Saw quite a few birds and one of the guys on the trip was knowledgeable about trees. A pretty good morning in all.
The Chattahoochee National Recreation Area (CNRA) where we were is in an area that I call "Ritzy" part of town..with lots of mansions and really fancy houses but I found myself being envious not of the houses but of the nice bike lanes on the roads. Where I live is more rural than anything else and if I try to go for walk/run around here I end up in a ditch because people will try to get as close to you as they can in their cars/trucks. I have to drive 20 mins to my favorite park and since I'm trying to save money I haven't been there for awhile. I miss it. I like the gym but I LOVE being outdoors on a beautiful morning like today.
The hike was nice. It was next to the Chattahoochee River. Times like this I really wish I had a good camera.
It's good to get out and meet new people. There were 8 of us in this group. I like small groups. Nice people all ages. It was suppose to be an three hour hike but ended up only being 2 hrs because the group basically walked so fast. So after we got back to the parking lot I went down a different trail (a loop) by myself so got my three hours in..Lots of people out on these trails this morning, it would have been nicer if there hadn't been so many people but I got by. One of the reasons I picked this hike was because it started earlier than the other hike that were going on today. I love early morning when the fog is still on the water. Saw quite a few birds and one of the guys on the trip was knowledgeable about trees. A pretty good morning in all.
The Chattahoochee National Recreation Area (CNRA) where we were is in an area that I call "Ritzy" part of town..with lots of mansions and really fancy houses but I found myself being envious not of the houses but of the nice bike lanes on the roads. Where I live is more rural than anything else and if I try to go for walk/run around here I end up in a ditch because people will try to get as close to you as they can in their cars/trucks. I have to drive 20 mins to my favorite park and since I'm trying to save money I haven't been there for awhile. I miss it. I like the gym but I LOVE being outdoors on a beautiful morning like today.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Looking Back!
I know I will never look that young again but it would be nice to have at least have just one chin (LOL).
Thursday, October 14, 2010
I'm such a Procrastinator!
I actually wrote the last post last Friday and finally got around to posting it yesterday!!!
I must have sat down at this computer at least every day and tried to write something but I never could complete a thought. I would type a sentence to only go back and delete it. So instead of keeping to my plan of blogging every day I would just go and read everyone else's blog and feel that I couldn't compete with all of the witty, motivating things that were said out there. So I did nothing!
yep..I'm good at doing Nothing...it's easy and I've had years of practice not following through with what I start..that's why I've lost major weight at least 3 times in my life to only gain it back..because I haven't figured out how to break myself of this habit of starting and not finishing. I am determined that this time I will get it figured out and this will be the LAST time I put myself through the pain and agony of trying to get myself back to where I want to be.
On the positive side..I will give myself a little break here because although I gave up taking pictures of what I eat (read on to find out why) and coming here to actually post a blog..I didn't give up going to the gym or working out..There were a couple of days that I struggled with myself about going to the gym but once I was there I felt a lot better..There were a couple of days (like last night) that I could have gone but decided to give myself a break (or rather my aching body) but I think I'm actually doing ok. I did sign up for a hike this coming Sunday morning and I'm excited about that.
(Moaning & Groaning) the reason I didn't go to the gym last night (although I know I won't be going for the next few days) is that I have been reminded (by my body) why I hate Lunges..I have aches and pains in my legs and ass...in muscles I forgot I had..I really pushed myself working out my lower body on Tues. night.
I'm off work for 4 days (starting today) and this is the first weekend I've had in a long time to do what ever! I Am excited about this but I'm still short on money (going on the hike is my one big treat since I have to pay for gas and parking at the park we're going to) so although I can't go out and do the things like shopping or painting my bedroom, there are still things around the house that I can do. My daughter & granddaughter are coming over on Saturday to help me wash windows (something that I've put off doing for years and boy do they need it..again signs of my procrastination). Hey I should get some exercise from this Right? Today I need to get in the spare room and clean it up. And there is the yard..I need to mow, it's a beautiful day out there and the exercise will be good...Through my (dirty)window here in the office I can see the leaves falling.
I love Autumn but it does give me work in the yard to do (which I haven't done much of in the last few years). When Larry was alive I always kept our yard looking good...he would sit on the porch in his wheelchair and visit me while I worked and we both enjoyed being out doors. I miss the long rides in the car to see the colors of fall that we used to take. For some reason I'm missing Larry more this year than I have in a long time..that's been part of my problem the last week..trying to deal with the loneliness of being a single widow. Even when I'm with people I still feel something is missing..it's hard to deal with some times. I usually try to fill the hollowness with food or just escape into one of my books (which I've done this past week...the books not the food). I know that it will get better and although the hollow feeling never leaves I will be able to handle it better in time..I've done it before and I'll do it this time. But I'm telling you it isn't easy! So much easier to do nothing and wallowing in self pity...Not sure what set me off this time but I know if I don't find a way to learn how to deal with it then all I'm working toward is for nothing because I will go back into that "black hole" I find myself in and it's not a place I want to be in...Enough of that..
Pictures of food I eat...I still think the Idea of doing this is/was a good one..and it did work for me for awhile..but (and I'm being truthful here) I found myself "grazing " (especially at work where there has been a lot of temptations lately) and not being honest about it...and this will only work IF I'm honest with myself..I'm not posting these pictures for anyone but myself and if I can't be honest then I'm only wasting the time it takes to do. It did make me aware of what I was eating for meals. I will most likely go back to it as soon as I can figure out how to keep myself Honest!
Goals for this next week
Blog each day what I'm feeling and doing even if it's only a sentence or two.
Keep myself honest on what I'm eating. No more "mindless/grazing" eating.
Get out and work in the yard!
Clean the spare room!
Spend time with my family!
Enjoy myself hiking on Sunday!
More later
I must have sat down at this computer at least every day and tried to write something but I never could complete a thought. I would type a sentence to only go back and delete it. So instead of keeping to my plan of blogging every day I would just go and read everyone else's blog and feel that I couldn't compete with all of the witty, motivating things that were said out there. So I did nothing!
yep..I'm good at doing Nothing...it's easy and I've had years of practice not following through with what I start..that's why I've lost major weight at least 3 times in my life to only gain it back..because I haven't figured out how to break myself of this habit of starting and not finishing. I am determined that this time I will get it figured out and this will be the LAST time I put myself through the pain and agony of trying to get myself back to where I want to be.
On the positive side..I will give myself a little break here because although I gave up taking pictures of what I eat (read on to find out why) and coming here to actually post a blog..I didn't give up going to the gym or working out..There were a couple of days that I struggled with myself about going to the gym but once I was there I felt a lot better..There were a couple of days (like last night) that I could have gone but decided to give myself a break (or rather my aching body) but I think I'm actually doing ok. I did sign up for a hike this coming Sunday morning and I'm excited about that.
(Moaning & Groaning) the reason I didn't go to the gym last night (although I know I won't be going for the next few days) is that I have been reminded (by my body) why I hate Lunges..I have aches and pains in my legs and ass...in muscles I forgot I had..I really pushed myself working out my lower body on Tues. night.
I'm off work for 4 days (starting today) and this is the first weekend I've had in a long time to do what ever! I Am excited about this but I'm still short on money (going on the hike is my one big treat since I have to pay for gas and parking at the park we're going to) so although I can't go out and do the things like shopping or painting my bedroom, there are still things around the house that I can do. My daughter & granddaughter are coming over on Saturday to help me wash windows (something that I've put off doing for years and boy do they need it..again signs of my procrastination). Hey I should get some exercise from this Right? Today I need to get in the spare room and clean it up. And there is the yard..I need to mow, it's a beautiful day out there and the exercise will be good...Through my (dirty)window here in the office I can see the leaves falling.
I love Autumn but it does give me work in the yard to do (which I haven't done much of in the last few years). When Larry was alive I always kept our yard looking good...he would sit on the porch in his wheelchair and visit me while I worked and we both enjoyed being out doors. I miss the long rides in the car to see the colors of fall that we used to take. For some reason I'm missing Larry more this year than I have in a long time..that's been part of my problem the last week..trying to deal with the loneliness of being a single widow. Even when I'm with people I still feel something is missing..it's hard to deal with some times. I usually try to fill the hollowness with food or just escape into one of my books (which I've done this past week...the books not the food). I know that it will get better and although the hollow feeling never leaves I will be able to handle it better in time..I've done it before and I'll do it this time. But I'm telling you it isn't easy! So much easier to do nothing and wallowing in self pity...Not sure what set me off this time but I know if I don't find a way to learn how to deal with it then all I'm working toward is for nothing because I will go back into that "black hole" I find myself in and it's not a place I want to be in...Enough of that..
Pictures of food I eat...I still think the Idea of doing this is/was a good one..and it did work for me for awhile..but (and I'm being truthful here) I found myself "grazing " (especially at work where there has been a lot of temptations lately) and not being honest about it...and this will only work IF I'm honest with myself..I'm not posting these pictures for anyone but myself and if I can't be honest then I'm only wasting the time it takes to do. It did make me aware of what I was eating for meals. I will most likely go back to it as soon as I can figure out how to keep myself Honest!
Goals for this next week
Blog each day what I'm feeling and doing even if it's only a sentence or two.
Keep myself honest on what I'm eating. No more "mindless/grazing" eating.
Get out and work in the yard!
Clean the spare room!
Spend time with my family!
Enjoy myself hiking on Sunday!
More later
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
took a break!
not taking pictures and not thinking about losing weight. Am still watching what I eat but feel that is all I've been thinking about..my whole life is wrapped around losing weight..NOT! There has to be more to life than this..I've only been at it for 6 months and don't have much to show for it...but not giving up..just taking a break. As soon as I can figure out what is going on with me I'll be back.
Not to worry I'm still working out and watching what I eat..I just can't seem to get it together enough to blog my thoughts. Still checking other blogs and getting motivation (and sometimes a good laugh)...
More later
Not to worry I'm still working out and watching what I eat..I just can't seem to get it together enough to blog my thoughts. Still checking other blogs and getting motivation (and sometimes a good laugh)...
More later
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Weigh in today!
Although I've been good about what I eat and have gotten in some good exercise my weigh in shows I'm still at the same weight I was last week..I didn't lose but then I didn't gain either..so I guess I'm ok with this..a little disappointed but I'm not going to let it get me down. I'll just have to look at what I'm doing and see if I can tweek it a little. There is no easy answer for me to losing this weight..
On the positive side..I'm physically feeling so much better than I did a few months ago..it's nice to be able to walk 3 miles and still feel good...and I'm upping my weights & reps at the gym..Just last night after getting home from the gym I was sitting on the couch and I noticed how easy it was to cross my legs again...there for awhile a couple of months ago I could barely do that..I find myself moving so mush easier..my joints aren't aching near as much (just first thing in the morning but I contribute that to "old age") .
I know I've been focused on what I'm eating this last couple of weeks but I've still been working out at least 3 times a week. I know for me I need more than that. I guess you could say I'm a work in progress..a never ending job. I know I can't rush things.I've done that before and sure I lost the weight but then I gained it right back..I also know that there is a time when I need to push myself more. It's a battle for me trying to find the right balance...but I'll won't give up!
I'm trying not to get discouraged about the money situation..I never heard back on the part time job I applied for..it would have been perfect and it would have helped me so much..but it must not have been in the cards for me...so I will keep looking. I hate that there are things I would love to do but don't have the money to do them..There is a hike in NC next Weds that I would love to go on but there is a charge to get into the park and also gas money..it's not much but more than I have right now..I know that there will be other times and other things I can do but it still doesn't keep me from feeling discouraged. I'm trying to remember that there are so many things I have to be thankful for that I can do..but damn it would be nice to go on that hike..this time of year is my favorite time for hiking..
It's a beautiful morning out and as soon as my laundry get done I'm heading out for a walk...I need an "attitude" adjustment and that should do it..
Hope ya'll have a great day!
On the positive side..I'm physically feeling so much better than I did a few months ago..it's nice to be able to walk 3 miles and still feel good...and I'm upping my weights & reps at the gym..Just last night after getting home from the gym I was sitting on the couch and I noticed how easy it was to cross my legs again...there for awhile a couple of months ago I could barely do that..I find myself moving so mush easier..my joints aren't aching near as much (just first thing in the morning but I contribute that to "old age") .
I know I've been focused on what I'm eating this last couple of weeks but I've still been working out at least 3 times a week. I know for me I need more than that. I guess you could say I'm a work in progress..a never ending job. I know I can't rush things.I've done that before and sure I lost the weight but then I gained it right back..I also know that there is a time when I need to push myself more. It's a battle for me trying to find the right balance...but I'll won't give up!
I'm trying not to get discouraged about the money situation..I never heard back on the part time job I applied for..it would have been perfect and it would have helped me so much..but it must not have been in the cards for me...so I will keep looking. I hate that there are things I would love to do but don't have the money to do them..There is a hike in NC next Weds that I would love to go on but there is a charge to get into the park and also gas money..it's not much but more than I have right now..I know that there will be other times and other things I can do but it still doesn't keep me from feeling discouraged. I'm trying to remember that there are so many things I have to be thankful for that I can do..but damn it would be nice to go on that hike..this time of year is my favorite time for hiking..
It's a beautiful morning out and as soon as my laundry get done I'm heading out for a walk...I need an "attitude" adjustment and that should do it..
Hope ya'll have a great day!
Monday, October 4, 2010
What I ate today!
I know this is boring but it really is helping me keep from doing the "mindless" eating thing..
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| p'butter toast (notice only 1 piece), hot tea & mango juice |
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| 2 apples shared with Princess Val |
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| bean buritto |
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| salmon, rice, carrots & cabbage |
Sunday, October 3, 2010
What I ate today!
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| hot choc. & oatmeal/cranberries |
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| leftover pizza & grapes |
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| corn bread, steamed cabbage & carrots |
What I ate yesterday!
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| egg/mushroom on toast, cantalope & mango juice |
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| Kashi pizza and grapes |
I went to a party last night and got home late so didn't have time to post what I ate.
The party was for my daughter's birthday and a totally differant group than I'm used to partying with. It was fun but differant.. One good thing is that my hostess (my daughters best friend) is a vegatarian and I knew she would have some good choices for me. People did look at me funny when I took my pictures..most people take pictures of people..but not me.LOL
I was tempted by the cake and cookies but choose the fruit instead..I like fruit so it wasn't that hard and knowing that if I ate the cake or cookies I would have to take a picture made me stop and think about my choice.. I did have a glass of wine but feel pretty good today.
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| party plate |
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| fruit |
Friday, October 1, 2010
What I ate today!
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| p'butter toast, cantalope & mango juice |
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| leftover veg soup & breadstick |
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| tomato sandwich & sweet potato slices |
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